In the world, in addition to family, friendship, and love, there is a fourth emotion between men and women. It is different from family, and has no blood ties. It is also different from friendship, and is more intimate and ambiguous than friendship. But it is definitely not love. It is more alienated and polite than love. The fourth emotion is closer to the state of SOUL-MATE in nature, and can be conceptually understood as a confidant.
It was this ambiguous fourth emotion that tormented Fang Liwei for many years.
---I knew from the first moment I saw you that you were destined to be mine in this life. Why did you sacrifice your youth and emotions for that person's reputation as a confidante?
---Meeting you is my disaster.
---That's right, I am your calamity. You can't escape it in this life, and you can't escape it.
---Maybe I don't want to hide secretly.