I often have a dream, in which I float on my back on the sea, relaxing with my whole body, following the ups and downs of the waves, and accepting the gentle caress of the sun on my body. The waves send me far away, I don't know where, but that seems to be the place where I should belong. Until one day, this dream suddenly changed - it seemed like a hand stretched out from under the sea. He grabbed me and dragged me towards the deep sea. The sun and the blue sky were getting further and further away from me, covered by the ripples of the waves, and disappeared. I sank to the bottom of the sea, cold and biting, and then woke up in a cold sweat. - From the beginning to the end, I never had the thought of struggling.