Heaven is on the right, but I am on the left. Alone, looking back, you are no longer there. My name is Niu Wentian, and I am a gay, which is what the public considers a "gay". I am honored, but also unfortunate. As I approach the age of 30, I have been in love several times, but found that my beautiful imagination is no match for the cruelty of reality. I wrote these words to record my "12" years of gay life, including my joys, sorrows, joys and tears. It's more about the nostalgia of those passers-by in life.