She said that she missed that time very much. Many people said that if she missed it that much, she must be living a bad life now.
She said that if that was the case, then she would just admit it. Because her life is indeed not very good without him. Just like every time she admitted her mistakes to him before, before she could say anything, she saw him looking at her intently, smiling as if he couldn't do anything to her. She remembered him saying, One day, I will punish you, this naughty little deer.
She said that she finally knew that no one would look at her so intently anymore, except her.