There are too many uncertainties when I come here. Do I still want to look up to you? Can you give me the dependence I want? I once fantasized and I woke up from the dream with tears streaming down my face. I never believed in illusions. I experienced grief but expected it to happen to me. Now it is realized but I am timid. I thought I was hiding well but was discovered. That day you were like my salvation. You drove away my uncertainty and replaced it with you. You gave me full of love. The fantasy I once had is no longer a dream...