I love him.
I never hesitated,
Now it is no longer certain.
What could be more cruel than constant disappointment?
Is there anything you can do to heal a sharp wound?
What can make facing an ordeal?
…
I don't know how I can encourage myself to continue,
The tenderness I once felt was like a dull knife cutting into flesh and gouging out my heart.
I'm really tired.
I no longer have the strength to struggle and leave...
Just pretend we never loved each other deeply
It was never deeply hurt...