If I had never met you, I don't know what my youth would have been like. I have never hugged you or kissed your mouth. If I can't get your body but still love you life and death, please don't care. I just want to love others but can't love you. I want to forget you but can't forget you. I have quietly sent you many letters, but the addresses are not your school, but cities one after another that you and I have never been to. You may go farther and farther, and maybe one day you will find that there are many places I have not been to, but there are traces of my travels. Don't worry, I'm an idiot when I'm with you, but I'm sober at night when I miss you. I know that I just need time, and I won't keep pestering you. Even if I still think about some unbearable things when looking at your photos, please believe that at that time I was cursing myself in my heart for not being a thing.