This novel tells the story of me who suffered from severe depression when I was 16 years old, but I did not relax my studies in high school at all. He had no intention of giving up life, but fought against the disease tenaciously. Use your strong heart and strong willpower, including your still optimistic attitude towards life and the attitude of never abandoning or giving up, to finally get out of the trouble of depression step by step and regain your life. This novel also includes my first love and friendship in school as a patient with depression, including my psychological journey facing the college entrance examination. It is full of sadness and gratitude, joy and sadness coexist, loneliness and warmth coexist. Finally, it also includes my life insights after getting over the torture of depression.