The collection of prose and poetry from 2010 to 2016 is presented in the collection in chronological order. It contains random reflections on campus youth, real stories, and reading reviews. I went to Shanghai to work in 2013, and it also contains urban emotions and poetry. After suffering from depression in 2015, I was admitted to the hospital. I was extremely frightened and struggled to get out of the quagmire. During this period, I also wrote some gloomy essays. Later, the prose style changed from before. Maybe, depression can really change the structure of a person's brain, and I love myself even more after I erase the background of depression and am reborn.