Throughout her life, she has been obsessed with things she shouldn't have been obsessed with, done things she didn't want to do, and was conceited about her intelligence. In the end, she has to live in the world as a lunatic. It's ridiculous, sad, and deplorable...
And for the rest of my life, which is neither human nor ghost, I am afraid that the only option is to commit suicide. To save my last dignity, it is nothing more than a dream...