I have recalled all your indifferent and disgusting expressions towards me in my mind countless times, and fixed all the happy and moving images into pictures, covering them with a layer of dust and hiding them in the shadows. I can't bear to throw them away completely, and I can't bear to recall them. I would rather have nightmares when I think of you than to have your gentleness continue to wander through my heart. Just thinking that one day, maybe, I can forget you?