When God created man, he gave us the capacity for love and instinct. Choosing to love yourself with almost no hesitation, this is instinct; when you meet the right person, you will give up this instinct, this is love.
When I met Xu Feng, I gave up my instinct. Then, while following him step by step, gradually turning into a demon and madness, my entire youth was inexplicably wasted.
I did catch him without a soul, and acknowledged the despicableness of the means. I thought that the thing I grabbed first would eventually be mine one day. After all, they were all of the same kind of emotion, and the difference between sympathy and love would definitely be lost in time.
After 10 years of working on the case, I finally realized that time is only used to describe reality. His cowardice in torturing himself in order to seek inner comfort has turned all my unwillingness into a cloud of smoke. As soon as I exhale, it disappears completely.
In the days without him, I stumbled back to find my instinct. Loving myself has allowed me to gain a different kind of life that I never had in the first half of my life: my son, friendship, career, and the sense of existence that money and status can make a woman feel deep in her heart. It turns out that besides him, there are many more things you can have.
How could the scene that seemed to be gradually becoming more and more vibrant be missing a touch of peachy color - Zuo Chen, who appeared at just the right time and gave me sufficient nutrients...
Xu Feng and I were like a close match. When he was running, I kept chasing him, but when he turned around and was willing to look at me, behind him was not only me, but also my Zuo Chen.
But I have no regrets about Xu Feng and Zuo Chen. Although I have been hurt, I have also loved persistently. .