My him has two sides
One side is:
"Twenty-twenty, if you don't leave, I won't abandon you."
The other side is:
"Twenty-two, can you leave? I don't love you."
I don't know which side of him is the real one, but after a series of things
I found that I actually don't need to question his feelings for me, even if
He is violent, forceful, and unreasonable. Because he always loves me, emotionally
It's always the same, I just don't trust him enough.