He has always been afraid of things he cannot grasp. For example, a rooster with a chaotic biological clock, letters that are easily lost, approval documents that are so delayed that they have no deadline, people's hearts, or the people he cares about died because of him.
So even when choosing partners and companions, he tends to choose people who have sufficient self-protection capabilities. He doesn't need to be protected, but he doesn't want to always have to protect others.
So such a quiet clerk never caught his eye.
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