Go Back in Time

The fascinating charm of Jiuzhaigou Valley is unstoppable. The weird and the sacred are perfectly unified in it. It's a feeling that's hard to explain clearly, and it's even harder for me to explain clearly to him. Lin and I met by chance, which is a very romantic way of saying it. The sky in Jiuzhaigou is very low and very blue, so real blue that you can touch it. The sun was shining brightly and I was extremely healthy. Even though my bangs had not been cut for a long time and were long covering my eyes, my light gray pupils could still feel the bright light. The world of Jiuzhai is filled with warm atmosphere. Including him. Lin laughed and said that he liked Jiuzhaigou. I looked at him and thought it was me too. But after moving his dry lips, he said nothing. Just looking at him, blissfully. Regarding Lin, I am very ambiguous, neither like it nor dislike it, neither a confidant nor a stranger. Often in my mind, he is just a flickering shadow, just like the black happiness that I keep chasing with my eyes covered. After that, we returned to our respective lives, running around for fame and money. This world is very realistic after all. Jiuzhaigou and the forest, like colorful bubbles, left me gorgeously and fragilely. The indifference and sophistication of the city made me very tired, and I no longer had the strength to scream and run to leave them behind. It's just that when there is no one around, those lost things will make me ache, making me touch the unknown desolation in my heart, with uneven texture. Then, at an informal party a year later, Ai Cao and I saw Kasahara, the glib-tongued guy who Ai Cao loved deeply but had no good intentions. Then, I saw Lin. He was wearing a white brimmed woolen hat, the kind that hip-hop dancers often use to cover their heads. It looked very obscene and annoying. He stood behind Kasahara and greeted us with a playful smile. God knows how Kasahara knew him. The Lin in front of me was very strange, completely different from the boy who said he liked Jiuzhai with his eyes closed under the clear sky in Jiuzhai. I just stared at their beaming faces without saying a word. Obviously, Lin didn't recognize me. Suddenly, Lin snatched my newly bought mobile phone from my hand, shouted loudly about Sony Ericsson's new model, and even browsed my messages wantonly. I reached out to grab it, but grabbed his hand. Lin turned his face and smiled evilly at Kasahara. Kasahara was already trembling with joy, and pushed Lin with a sharp voice, "You are so bad." I became so angry that I took my phone back and ran straight out the door. Ignoring Wormwood's pulling and calling, I kept running and running through the streets and alleys until I was exhausted. At a corner at an intersection, I accidentally fell into the endless stream of people's figures and glares. The tears flowed down unsatisfactorily, across my hot cheeks, and condensed into crystal clear teardrops on my chin, announcing to the outside world its coldness. I suddenly felt that in fact, Ai Cao and I were both stupid, the biggest stupid people in the world. I no longer wanted to judge this matter based on our feelings. The person he once was has been left in the past, while the other person is waiting in the future. Only I am in the present. Was it because I didn't know him well enough at the beginning, or was it because society and friends had poisoned a person too deeply, was it because I had changed the direction of my heart, or was it because he had changed his attitude towards life, everything, everything, let it go with the wind, I don't need to explain, life will continue silently. I think I will gradually fade him from my memory, forget him, forget a blank period, and bury the pain of a scar deeper, so that no one will know. In Jay Chou's casual but melancholy "Want to Go Back to the Past", I fell into a deep sleep. In my dream, I was back in Jiuzhaigou, alone. 05. Years ago. In "Want to Go Back to the Past" Manuscript