She is a loser, a complete loser.
She was a failure from the moment she was born. She didn't choose the right time, she didn't choose to be in an era when doves of peace were flying, but she chose to be in an era when hot weapons were popular and wars were raging.
Her childhood was also a failure. Like her friends of the same age, she did not spend her time in the laughter of her friends under the care of her parents. Instead, she spent time with a white-haired old feudal remnant who was full of talk and gnawed on the Four Books and Five Classics.
Her youth was also a failure. On the night of her 17th birthday, a group of vicious Japanese soldiers broke into her home, killed her father, humiliated her mother, and looted her home.
Her love also failed,...
The only thing she felt successful about was getting to know him and him.