She thought that he must be the calamity in her fate, otherwise, why would her hand be shaking every time she picked up the knife and stabbed him, even if he killed her parents with his own hands, turning her from the most talented woman in the Central Plains to a down-and-out prostitute, even if he ruined her family. But when she saw him risking his life to block the arrow for her, even though he was covered in blood, he asked her if she was hurt. When her eyes were completely wet with tears and she was so heartbroken that she couldn't breathe, she realized that he was the love disaster that she could not survive in her life.
He thought she must also be the calamity in his fate. He turned his hands into clouds and rain, and regarded human life as nothing, but he always had compassion for her. That was true a few years ago, and it is true now. Even when she stabbed him with her own hands in the end, he still loved her deeply.
You are the doomed disaster in my life.