She has been living an ordinary and cowardly life. Faced with the torture of reality, she chooses to be free. She swore to herself that if there was an afterlife, she would live the life she wanted. God might have intentionally given her a chance to wake up in a different body.
Before she could adapt to life in the new world, that man broke into her life and warmed her scarred heart. She was like a dying flower, slowly blooming under his careful care.