She has severe paranoia and will never give up easily, no matter whether it is correct or not...
She has an almost crazy paranoia about freedom and an almost despairing pessimism about love...
Her past is an epic story full of calculations, and her future will be a huge disguise.
These are her choices, so she will never let herself fail. If you don't succeed, you will fall to pieces.
She separated herself from the circle and walked proudly on the line she decided on, which was thinner than a steel rope...