That year, he tenderly replaced me with Awu. The burning phoenix candle crackled.
He covered my eyes and asked me if I loved him
He also hangs bells on the marriage tree
Another year, he grabbed my wrist and made me kneel all night with scarlet eyes.
And I wrote to ask for leave
finally
Before I die, I still wonder whether he is okay and whether there are still bells jingling on the marriage tree.