A friend I had in the past once joked that I was a pervert, and I laughed out loud.
Actually she was right, I was just a pervert.
My parents abandoned me when I was a child and left a lot of money. I wasn't as shy and reserved as other girls since I was a child, but when I was just growing up, I was pretty much involved in everything from 18r to AV and GV. Gradually, I grew up, but I was surprised to find that when all the girls around me were falling in love, I had no idea what liking meant. Sometimes the slightest fondness for someone will disappear completely after a day or two. I even doubted that I didn't have a heart capable of loving others.
I don't want to admit it, so I long for a true love.
When I was 15 years old, I liked to watch some erotic romances, and I found the male characters in them to be persistent, chivalrous, tender, and charming. I liked them very much. However, I clearly understand that there are no such boys in real life, let alone rich, tall, handsome and well-educated people. Such upper-class people are beyond my reach. Even though I have some money, I am still considered a nouveau riche at best. It is still the money my parents left me.
An occasional development game gave me an idea.
Why don't I raise a child myself, grow it the way I like it, and then let him fall in love with me.