The first instinct of human beings is desire, and the second instinct is voyeurism. Youman felt that the so-called gods and Buddhas were nothing more than that, blatantly peeping into people's loneliness and despair, and it was extremely shameless. She is a contradictory person. She does not believe in gods and Buddhas, but she also wants to be saved. Only later did she realize that self-rescue was the most reliable way to survive.