This is the complaint of an author seeking death. It is purely narcissistic and a complaint.
This is not a novel, so it doesn't matter the beginning or the end.
In addition, the author is not only the most narcissistic person in the world, but also a person who is too lazy to weep ghosts and gods.
There will be various styles of writing in this pit, but there is only one core - narcissism
So before you read it, recall whether you can tolerate narcissistic people.
Welcome to poke.