"In the countless nights that followed, I kept forgiving myself, for not doing something right enough, for not persisting longer. But suddenly, at this moment, I realized that we are not together because of our fate." This is the last paragraph in Xueman's diary. The diary is old and spans ten years. I didn't understand it at first, but the longer time goes by, the more I can understand her obsession.
Two people who care about each other move far and near because they are afraid of being hurt. When this love begins to become deeper, it is already too late. I began to understand the phrase "spending my whole life". No wonder Xue Man can't let go. Some people really want to spend their whole lives trying to let go.
So, bid farewell to the shadow that always fell at my feet in those years.