——I fell in love with a gentle person. It's just that that gentle person will never look at me, and his tenderness will never be shared with me.
The first time he discovered that he was gay was probably when Luo Yao was seventeen years old, which was when he first met Cheng Zixie. Luo Yan had never believed in such a ridiculous thing as love at first sight, but it was then that he believed that love at first sight was real.
I fell in love with Cheng Zixie, partly because of Cheng Zixie's appearance, and partly because of Cheng Zixie's gentleness. Although it was not until later that Luo Yan realized that there was only one person who Cheng Zixie could truly treat with tenderness, and that person was definitely not him.
"You like Ji Wei?"
"How do you know?"
"Just go by your feelings. It always feels like this."
"If you feel uncomfortable, do you want me to comfort you? Cover your eyes and think of me as Ji Wei. I won't make a sound."
"What are you doing this for?"
"I'm just curious."