I have never thought about whether I have something or something to lose in this half of my life. I often sit alone in the bathtub and let the water reach my neck. Finally, the skin on the pads of my fingers is soaked with wrinkles, and then I immerse my face in the water and cry.
I should be considered lucky in this half of my life, because there were two people who loved me so much; I should also be considered pitiful, because both of them were lost in the end.
I will never forget their words...
Xu Qiudong said: "In good times, I always thought that we would all be gray-haired at the end."
Yan Chen said: "Liangchen, if you live an unhappy life, I will never rest in peace until my death."