I have lived this life, but I don't know who I am living for.
I thought I was living for love, but after he arranged everything to drive me away, I was still alive.
I thought I was living for hatred, but after I inserted the knife into his chest without hesitation, I was still alive.
I am alive, but I feel like I am dead.
Zhao Yun, you actually put the lovesickness poison on me.
But I am still very despicable. I say I hate you, but in my heart I always remember the first snowfall that day.
"Girl," you looked at me in Tsing Yi, "may I call you Qingshang?"
"Okay." At that time, I had already lost my memory.
But that memory cannot be forgotten even if I drink Meng Po soup every day.
So, I started to regret it.
If I could, I would not follow my father to Lin'an.
If I could, I wouldn't smile at you covered in blood.
If I could, I wouldn't have said yes foolishly when you named me "Qingshang".
I miss you for a long time, I hate you for a long time, I hate it until I return home, and I lean on the building under the bright moon. ----"Sauvignon Blanc" Bai Juyi
Note: This book is based on the history of the Southern Song Dynasty and selects some characters. The plot is slightly different from history and has no historical value. If you want to study this period of history, please check the history books of the Song Dynasty in detail. Thank you!