She has been waiting...
Waiting to forget? Wait to start? Or is it impossible to understand the past? She didn't know it herself.
But every time she felt it was almost time to start a new life, her heart told her again and again, wait, wait.
Maybe wait until Bao'er gets older, wait until his job becomes more stable, wait until he earns more money...
As a result, she waited until he came back.
Wait until all the unexpected happens!