Zuo Nan, who wanted to be a fresh and fresh singer, became an actor by chance. In the process of acting, he slowly recalled his unspeakable childhood love. This book uses the boys that Zuo Nan met from school to becoming an actor as the main development route to describe the love and hatred between Zuo Nan (male), Bai Haofei (male), Lan Shan (female) and others, as well as Zuo Nan's tortuous gay life that is not understood by the world.