"How can I betray my trust like this?"
She always thought that he truly protected her.
But that night, he took the dagger she gave him and put it against her neck.
That night, she cried in front of him for the first time.
"What do you want from me?"
She yelled hysterically, betrayal after betrayal. She was really tired and wanted to escape from this country and this world.
…
"You have to know that you still have us." Her gentle words could not stop her from leaving.
She still hid willfully, in a place where they couldn't find her.
Yet they never gave up looking for her.
She suddenly understood how cruel she must be. Wasn't her leaving a betrayal to the men who regarded her as their god?
The queen mother's persecution and accident after accident made her truly grow up.
She knows that only by covering the sky with one hand and wielding power over the world can she protect the peace of life of the people she cares about.
"Mother, you may be wrong. Maybe I have owned the whole world from the beginning."
(Imperial Examination) Waiting for the Moon in the West Chamber