I hate Zhai Yi. This is the strongest feeling I have when I recover my memory.
If it were me at that time, I would definitely use all my magic to kill Zhai Yi. What can I do to repay the revenge of genocide? Except Zhai Yi's life.
But now I understand that what you want but can't get is the deepest despair and pain in the world. I want him to be completely willing to get stuck in the quagmire tailor-made for him, and never be able to get out of it!