There are never ifs in this world, and if there were, we wouldn't think about what ifs.
Many times, Shi Shi would wonder whether it was a dream in which she turned into a dragon, or whether there was something driving her to wait and grow. From the initial youthful spirit to the gentleness with others, from the initial ignorance of the world to the vicissitudes of life, it had been too long, and she could no longer distinguish between reality and dreams.