No one knows how far forever is, they only know that this is a promise of happiness. I once believed it, but now I no longer associate it with happiness.
I originally thought that I could be with him despite all the difficulties like what was written in the novel, but I realized in the end that I couldn't. Everyone thinks that being together through life and death is the exclusive preserve of lovers. That's not true. Maybe it's because we don't love deeply enough or for some other reason, but we just can't do it. I'm afraid he will hate me in heaven, which is wrong. I think he will forgive me for my last willfulness. He is such a good person.
Come and see me often, you know I am most afraid of loneliness, but I am still living without you, which is a little shameful. He gathered up the collar of his shirt, put on the light brown windbreaker, took out the cigarette case as usual, lit one, and exhaled a puff of light smoke. When I walked out of the warm house, the cold wind that hit me made me naturally shrug my shoulders. When you left, the flowers had not yet bloomed, but I was already a withered forest. It is a little cold. Remember to add some clothes to avoid catching a cold.