She said, Gao Xiang, I don't love you anymore.
The street lights were torn apart in the cold wind and fell on her body. Even my breathing was numb, and my whole body seemed to be like a wooden stake standing in front of her.
She said, Gao Xiang, I am not afraid of dragging you down, but I am afraid that you will fall in love with me.
She said, Gao Xiang, a woman like me doesn't deserve to be loved.
Many years later, I realized that this woman named Shen Xiaowan was pushing me away. She was so stupid, so easily scared, so easily hurt, and in the deepest dark corner, she would always wipe off her thick makeup and look at me secretly.
Because she loved me so deeply, just as I loved her so deeply.
But it was too late.
Even though the grass by the river is green again.