If secret love is very painful, I would rather say that it is happier.
The first time I was her deskmate, I saw her looking at the blackboard intently; the first time I carried her schoolbag, I saw her sweating profusely while busy with class duties; the first time I saw her slacking off in a self-study class, I saw her long eyelashes were dark and thick... I wanted to protect her, I wanted to protect her, I wanted to make her happy, I really fell in love with her.
I prefer that the protagonist of this story is her. At least, this story is more beautiful and pure. However, I couldn't break into her beautiful fairy tale world. I could only silently accompany her, my princess, and be a "Prince Charming". For me, the princess seems real or illusory, either alienated or familiar. In short, I can only like her and protect her. Get her and I'll hurt her.
I am Chen Feng, and the princess is Gu Nian.