I don't want to live such a mediocre life, I want to go back in time, go back to the age of twenty, and see the me who has not experienced the vicissitudes of life, tasted the sinister nature of the human heart, and the dirty and dark society, and will be happy for a long time because of a little care from others, as simple as paper.
Go back to the age of eighteen and see the hysterical self who was tortured by the college entrance examination and still refused to give up.
Go back to the age of sixteen and see the self who was sensitive but didn't dare to confess to a boy he liked and had low self-esteem.
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I want to go back and see myself back then, and I want to find a reason to live, and I don't want to live so tiredly.
I want to give myself, who has always been a loser, a chance to choose again in my mediocre life. I don't want to live in such a state of confusion anymore. ——Lin Jiu