I am Utopia, an ordinary college student who loves to think. I have been recording my life and thoughts from high school to now. So far, I have written more than 300,000 words. These can be said to be essays or diaries. Some time ago, I browsed through my diary from the first year of high school, and felt that I could see the process of my ideological transformation. I felt that these might be of reference value to some confused teenagers. Of course, a person cannot guarantee that his or her values are correct, let alone me who still feel that the world is a mess after thinking about it. But when you see someone thinking like this, you will reflect on how you think, which will help you grow. This is why I want to organize these essays for others to see. As for whether others are willing to read it, I have no way of knowing. I think it is quite interesting. When I reach the age of 40, it will be so interesting to reopen these things.