Standing at the moment of graduation, we were really scared. We were now like a group of soldiers going to the battlefield to kill the enemy without weapons, like travelers who had to cross the vast desert without bringing water. As post-90s generation, we once laughed at the disgraceful life of those post-80s seniors after graduation. We thought we could face graduation with confidence, and we could face life calmly and calmly. We even think at a certain moment that we can be arrogant, that we can achieve great things, that our lives can be extraordinary. Although it is too early to deny ourselves at this moment, we are indeed afraid at this moment. Fear and fear far exceed our reluctance and lingering.
Every day Jin Cheng and I spend together are filled with two completely opposite feelings: peace of mind and fear. I like his melancholy but I am afraid of his melancholy. When he was depressed, his long eyelashes could not cover his eyes full of thoughts, and his handsome face became more angular because of his silent expression, but I couldn't guess what he was thinking in his heart, and he never mentioned it, which made me fall into hundreds of speculations, making me anxious and crazy.
Jin Cheng, please forgive me for deceiving you, because you like to avoid difficulties too much, because you don't want our relationship to be blocked at all, and because I love you too much and don't want you to give up our relationship just because of this thing, so I have to lie to you. Since you don't like to face obstacles, I will find a way to eliminate these obstacles myself.