He was addicted to her, and he couldn't stop or destroy her.
I don't know if other men have virginity issues like him. In short, he originally only loved her as a person, but after the two had a relationship, he loved her everything, body and soul...
Even if she is married, even if she only treats him as a shady male favorite, even if she treats him as dispensable...
The woman he had been in love with since he was fourteen years old, she was his charm.
I can't quit, and I don't want to quit.