I often wonder if anyone can live a happy life forever. I have fabricated my life so badly, living in a tragic fantasy world, and getting to know him is the most unfortunate thing that has happened to me in my life. I feel sorry for the protagonist's heart-rending sadomasochism (this is the first time I present my story to everyone as a novel, every word is the language I hide deep in my heart, the writing is very bad, please forgive me)