I have never tried so hard to get someone or even a thing, and sadly no matter how hard I try I still can't get it. So sometimes, I feel like this is really good. Now you are lying in front of me so obediently, and you will never run away again, and you will never say you hate me again. I won't resist anything you do, as if you truly and completely belong to me. So I don't mind waiting any longer. But sometimes I feel a little scared. I am in my thirties... I am no longer that young. I have waited for you for ten years, and maybe I can only wait for you for another twenty years at most... What if I can't wait for you to wake up until the last day? I also want to hear you act coquettishly on me, laugh at me like a fool, and say that my cooking tastes terrible. Whatever you say is fine. Maybe say "I hate you".