Love and Mourning·chasing Death

How does it feel to watch a living person turn into ashes in front of you? How does it feel to watch the person you love most turn from existence to nothing in front of you, from flesh and blood to crumbs and dust? How does it feel to watch the person you love most sacrifice yourself to save your own little life because of your willfulness and ignorance? I don't know, I really don't know. At that moment, everything was so unreal, like something that happened far away and belonged to the previous reincarnation, hazy, illusory... Sad. The heart was shattered at that moment, and with him, completely disappeared...