"We must discover that we will have nothing left
at least you can say
I understand, life is the loneliest thing
Everything I have is a fluke
All I have lost is my life
When you don't forget and don't want to have it
i love you"
——Zhang Xuan's "About I Love You"
I always thought that I was in love with Zhao Yi. Because we are so compatible in the spiritual world. But Zhao Yi taught me that no matter how much we thirst for each other spiritually, we will eventually return to life. Spiritual hunger is often more deadly than physical hunger, but humans are inherently sexual, and the entire world is still made of matter after all. Love and Bread You can choose love. But love cannot replace bread, and bread cannot replace love. We only have the power of choice, not complete ownership.
Later, I kept hurting each other with others in the name of love. My first love was Lemon, and my lover Sylvia. At that time, I remembered what Zhao Yi said, "What doesn't belong to you will not belong to you after all. What belongs to you can never be taken away by others."
I hurt others and myself. When I decided to give up, my new tenant Lin Siyuan told me that she was willing to stay with me and wait for the day when I think I love her. Compared with Zhao Yi's heavy uncertainty, Lin Siyuan has blind confidence and belief in love that may be unique to young people. Do you choose to accept this feeling or give up? I stood at the crossroads not knowing where to go.