I have wanted to write down my experiences for a long time. But I haven't put pen to paper because I feel that even words can't express that feeling. It's not that I belittle myself, but my sincere dedication in my youth is unforgettable after all. That feeling can only be truly understood by those who have experienced it. In the later days when I was studying, I tried to let go of the past and contacted Mo Ming and Tang Ci, but the same indifferent attitude still deeply chilled my heart. Maybe we are all wrong. From the time we met to the time we got to know each other, all the time we spent together was in vain. Suddenly I regret knowing you in my life. I am the only one who lives in memories, and I am the only one who cannot let go of the past. The years have passed, they have passed, and they can never go back. After all, it is impossible to "not think about the past and not remember the past." When I looked back again, I realized that I had failed myself and the best years of my youth. As the saying goes, it seems that these stars are not last night, for whom the wind and dew set the midnight sun.
I am also very grateful to Zhang Zhongli, who once warmed a young man when I thought I was at my worst emotionally. Many years later I discovered that he had already lived in my heart.
If the writing is not good and the words do not convey the meaning, I still hope that I will understand.
I would like to dedicate this article to my lost youth and to you who are no longer waiting for me where I am.