When the cold and sharp spear pierced my body, I felt a long-lost warmth, and her tears were even hotter. Being able to finally see her alive and well, I finally tasted happiness again. I am not qualified to say apology words to her. I know that is not what she wants to hear. What I have to do is to promise her the promise of the next life. If I can't catch it in this life, I will never let it go in the next life.
The sound of darkness and wind is getting louder, and my hell has opened its door to me. Even breaking my bones and throwing ashes can hardly atone for my sins. However, after all the retribution is paid, I will definitely crawl out of hell and crawl towards the life I promised her.