What is love? There are thousands of answers, it is trust, support and companionship. So on the contrary, what is love not? Most people would say it's not suspicion, dominance, or force.
For Mu Ruiran, who grew up in a single-parent family, her own answer seemed to have been in her mind for many years.
There seems to be no end to the story of her youth. Growing up in the picturesque town of Qiyuan, her parents' divorce and the family's lack of affluence did not cause her much trouble when she was young. From the kind and upright brothers Jian Yi and Jian Ru, from Gu Yan who was raised by her grandfather after her parents divorced, to the lively and cool Asakusa who later appeared, these four names have been throughout her growth and have become all the memories of her boyhood. Then many years later, a cautious confession led to Gu Yan's departure forever. While everyone was grieving, Jian Yi discovered that Asakusa seemed to have disappeared from their lives.
Her indirect actions led to Gu Yan's death, which resulted in the resentment and departure of her closest friends. The playmates who had once been together began to go their separate ways in life that summer. During a meeting with Jian Yi, Mu Ruiran accidentally bumped into the mysterious and tender Lin Jinyou. In the following days, the few meetings with him made both of them secret. However, the difference in identity and the destruction of the star Ji Lingji, who had been unrequitedly in love with Lin Jinyou for many years, caused the two to miss each other for two years.
Two years later, Asakusa finally came back but became addicted to drugs, and the boy with the same face as Gu Yan, everything became more and more confusing...
——In the beginning, nothing was certain, but looking at the people around me, the only thing that felt certain to last forever was that we would definitely be together. After separation, it's not that I won't love again, it's that I won't love like that anymore. In this long life, what if I have a good wife by my side and a family full of children and grandchildren? When you go home and open the door and see a different face, when you drive on the roadside and see a person with a back similar to hers, you suddenly realize that you have everything, except that you have lost her, and that you have no love.
Only then will you understand that there really is such a thing as "ending your life alone".
But this is something you asked for, isn't it?
——Mu Ruiran, this is all I can do in my life.
——Lin Jinyou