From the moment I was born I knew I was living in troubled times.
As long as I can remember, I have understood that the only way to survive in this troubled world is to kill my heart.
But I have always been unwilling to believe it. But if this is a calamity of love, then I have experienced it in this lifetime as many others. That's when I made up my mind - to kill my heart.
So what if I don't die? Who will stay with me forever and never forget it? A king who is originally a female concubine but has to live as a man all his life. What have I gained from being in this world?