There are some things that you have always wanted and been chasing, so desperately want to get, but so afraid of getting. You are used to the feeling of chasing from a distance, and then you don't know how to have it, so you have to push it away with all your strength, and then tell yourself: This is not suitable for me.
For Qing Ye, Shen Li is like this, Cheng Xian is like that, and Wu Yao is the one she doesn't even dare to have the idea of having.
Some fates begin unknowingly, grow in confusion, and then end when it is clear and no one dares to explain it. If you missed it, don't blame it on the wrong timing, don't blame it on different stances, don't blame it on rules that don't allow it, just blame it on us not being brave enough.