She just wanted stability for the rest of her life, but she was trapped in the self-righteousness and ambition of the two men. Instead of waiting to be blessed, it is better to break and start again.
She said, "You never believed that I would follow you regardless of anything."
He said, "I thought this was best for you."
He said, "I allow you to run away for five years, but I am not asking you to really leave. Come to me or I will take you away, it is your choice."
She felt as if she had lived two lives, but she still couldn't find the stability and quiet time she wanted in this world.