Then I'll Take the First Step

I really like this article. I found it accidentally on Zhihu. I finished reading it in the information class at school. I burst into tears. I will post a comment when I come back over the weekend to commemorate it~ I think what I see in this article is not only Tang Nianqing's forbearing and unforgettable love as an adult, but also Phuntsok's sincere and passionate love in his boyhood. There is no distinction between them, no difference in degree, it is the most unreserved love they can give each other at their age. No matter what name or identity Tang Nianqing wears, the two of them will fall in love again. I think Phuntsok didn't know that he was Qin when he fell in love with Tang Nianqing again. This was a love of souls. Later, knowing that he was Qin was just a sudden realization. Reminds me of the line in "Want to See You" "To love, to lose, and to live up to the encounter." This article really makes me cry for someone like me who is obsessed with details. In Phuntsok's world, the color of the sky is the dark purple of Qin's clothes and skirts, and the hazy drizzle is the "Raindrops" that Qin played that year. The rain that he stretched out the window to catch... Even if it is Qin himself, the drizzle on his face is the touch of a lover. Reading this article is like watching a slow-moving movie. The interweaving of reality and memories makes me feel that time and space are constantly separated and intertwined. Their stories are also immortalized in repetition and comparison, which makes it difficult to let go. At the end of the story, Phuntsok chose to live in Tang Nianqing's name. I think this can comfort his loneliness. In this way, Tang Nianqing will not really die, and he will still live in the mouths of others. I really hope there will be a side story where the two of them get together in peacetime. Can we wait until this time in my lifetime? (Crying

Their childhood friendship was buried in the snow with him. He fell asleep forever before he even had time to say "I love you" to Phuntsok himself, leaving only Phuntsok alone and the Morse code "I love you" composed of the faint light of the flashlight.

Oh shit, why is this happening! Why is this happening! Why are you stabbing me in the heart like this? It hurts! I feel so sweet and bitter that I can't explain why. I have never felt like this before. It turns out that these three words "I love you" are really as heavy as a thousand pieces of gold. They are too heavy! Wuwuwuwu, with tender friendship, is what my eyes can't finish when I look at you, wcwuwuwuwu

Does Phuntsok know the true meaning of this Morse code? Tang Nianqing thought that Phuntsok had forgotten him until his death.

[Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] I feel bad, psychological committee member. It's too painful. Why is it so painful? I'm so stupid. I know it's because I still watch, but I still overestimate my resistance to abuse. [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] Why does fate treat them like this? Life and death are really cutting people. They could have been fine [Crying] [Crying] [Crying]

I'm so stupid. I thought it was Tianwen but he gave me a knife. Oh my God, it hurt me to death.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I'm crying so much that I'm going to vomit, ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Why can't I stop crying? No matter in any era, loving someone more than your own life always touches my heart, and I have to read it again after I calm down.

Haha, Li Zhi hasn't done anything yet [bad laugh]